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Never Underestimate A Pretty Face
It cost more than you think
Created on 2007-08-23 16:23:54 (#13661546), last updated 2009-05-04
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The world is full of desire. People inherently want things; lots of things. The ugly want to be pretty, the hungry want to eat, and the klutz wants some coordination. But this pretty face 'o mine, it came with a price. So the girl who wants to lose the zits; and the guy who wants the balls to ask the cheerleader out; they have to pay a price too. Nothing like mine, though. They don't have to remember what it was like to be adored in a moment and treated like a prince only to have the rug ripped out from under them just to be a foul prank. With me, they don't have to play the Fool.
Yeah. I wasn't a pretty ornament on the arms of the Gentry. I watched them though; and I won't deny I hungered for their lives. All they seemed to have to do was to spread their legs and smile at all the right places. It was different being the Jester, the Fool, the evening's entertainment.
Take a second. Think about what it might be like standing behind a curtain trying to think of witty lines when your stomach is churning either from what they fed you an hour ago; from the nasty looks the other kids are giving you, or maybe just fear that if you fuck it all up and don't entertain, that you don't please, that disgustingly heavy thing you ate that was swimming in what your pretty sure was blood; is the last thing you'll eat for days.
Sometimes I hungered to be one of those other kids; the kids who weren't in the lime light. I don't think any of us knew which end was up and which was down; but at least they had each other. They could at least pretend that when the chips were down they'd hold together.
Now? I suppose some habits die hard. I still give people what they want. A new set of papers so they can get a job that I probably lined up; or maybe just the courage to stand taller than they thought they ever could. Fuck, I'm the Genie in the Magic Lamp.
Maybe if you give enough, dance fast enough, laugh hard enough, and want it with all your heart and soul to be free, you just might get your wish. That's what I'm holding out for.
...it cost more than you think."
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